All of a sudden, I miss everyone...

MISSING.....

HER ;(

THATS WHERE I'LL BE... tag

1. Put Your iTunes music player on Shuffle (or other music device/shuffle My Music).

2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.

3.You must write down the name of the song no matter how silly it sounds!

4. Put any comments in brackets after the song name.

5. Tag at least 5 friends.

6. Anyone tagged has to do the same, because pointlessness fun spreads like a virus.


If someone says, “Is this okay?” You say? "Can't Help Falling In Love" Michael Buble
"Wise men say, only fools rush in. But I can't help, falling in love with you..."

How would you describe yourself? "Dying To Live" Jonny Lang
" So I'll keep fighting to live, till there's no reason to fight. And I'll keep trying to see, until the end is in sight."

What do you like in a guy/girl? "Dreamer" Uh Huh Her
"I'm all alone you see, you lost me somehow. And what we're fighting for is peace, Are you still in love with me or someone else?

How do you feel today? "Closer" Burn Season
"Don't say that it's over, I'd kill to be closer.... Don't say that it's over, you can't live without me."

What is your life’s purpose? "Love Song" Sara Bareilles
"Made room for me, It's too soon to see, if I'm happy in your hands. I'm unusually hard to hold onto..."

What is your motto? "Firebird Fly" Little Big Town
"Then she popped the clutch in a cloud of dust, She left him high and dry. For the first time she could finally spread her wings, Down the highway you could hear her sing."

What do your friends think of you? "Unsaveable" Faith Hill
"Cause baby I cried a little too hard, a little too long. What I thought was right was way too wrong and too far gone."

What do you think of your parents? "Simple Life" Carolina Liar
"Don't you want a simple life? You pray for change before you turn out the lights. You burn a bridge everytime it feels right, Oh you don't want to forget where you're from."

What do you think about very often? "All The Same" Sick Puppies
"Go ahead and tell me you'll leave again, you'll just come back running. Holding your scarred heart in hand, it's all the same."

What is 2 + 2? "Tailor Made" Colbie Caillat
"But then he whispered in your ear, He's absolutely fallen. The words he said are clear, Don't insist on stallin'.... Because he's tailor made for you, with stunning golden hues. And once we (incomprehensible) the all persistent beating heart..."

What do you think of your best friend? "You aint Woman Enough" Martina Mcbride
"Now you say you're gonna take him, oh but I don't think you can... Cause you ain't woman enough to take my man"

What do you think of the person you like? "A Place to Land"
"I've sold my soul for a little bit of Heaven, I've put my heart in the wrong hands. I've gone places where I swore I'd never go again. See, I never had any trouble fallin', I'm just tryin to find a place to land...."

What is your life story? "The Best Is Yet to Come" Michael Buble
"The best is yet to come, and baby wont it be fine? You think you've seen the sun, but you aint seen it shine."

What do you want to be when you grow up? "Next to You" Jordin Sparks
"Maybe we're friends, maybe we're more, maybe it's just my imagination. But I see you stare just a little too long, and it makes me start to wonder. So baby call me crazy but I think you feel it too, maybe I, baby I just gotta get next to you."

What do you think of when you see the person you like? "When the Lights Go Down" Faith Hill (Well, kinda true ;)
"When the lights go down, and there's nothing left to be, when the lights go down and the truth is all you see...."

What will you dance to at your wedding? "Love Story" Taylor Swift
"He knelt to the ground and pulled out a ring and said, Marry me Juliet, you'll never have to be alone. I love you and thats all I really know. I talked to your dad go pick out a white dress, it's a Love Story... baby just say yes."

What will they play at your funeral? "Flat On the Floor" Carrie Underwood

"Baby, baby, baby tell me how, you think you're gonna live without my love now. I don't know why you gotta keep coming around..."

What is your hobby/interest? "Ashes and Wine" A Fine Frenzy

"Don't know what to do anymore.. I've lost the only love worth fighting for. I'll drown my tear in a stormy sea. That would show you, that would make you hurt like me.

What is your biggest fear? "Gravity" Sara Bareilles

"You hold me without touch. You keep me without chains. I've never wanted anything so much, than to drown in your love and I'll feel your pain. Set me free, leave me be. I don't wanna fall another moment into your gravity."

What is your biggest secret? "She Got Over Me" Saving Abel

"A little heartache, goes a long way. Guess thats what love is all about. I missed on Monday, a terrible Tuesday... Maybe someday I can work it out."

What do you think of your friends? "Do You Believe Me Now" Jimmy Wayne

"So do you believe me now? I guess I really wasn't that crazy, and I knew what I was talkin about. Every time the sun goes down, he's the one thats holdin you baby. And me, I'm missin you way across town.."

What will be the title of this post on your blog? "Thats where I'll Be" Little Big Town (I actually haven't been able to STOP listening to this song!)

"Holding you is revelation. Baby I, have seen the other side. There's nothing there but lonely, so I live for doin only, what it takes... to bridge the great divide..."

(Stop playing the game for this one)
Who do you tag? I tag Aubs, Dee, Lindsay, Whitnee, Lindy and whoever else wants to do this tag!!!

WHERE I GREW UP, WE RODE IN TRUCKS....

After spending one of the best weekends ever at home this past weekend, I discovered after coming back up to the "City Life" that I am having strange side-effects. No, they aren't the side-effects that you hear on every medication commercial.



I'm not going to have a rush of dizziness, fatigue, weight loss or gain.

None of my hair is going to fall out, nor is my skin going to get dry and flakey.



I am just experiencing a strange LOVE for Sanpete County that I haven't had in the past. I guess it's nothing to be ashamed of...



All my life, I've considered myself a "City Girl".... I was going to move to California, get a good job where maybe one day I could become famous or maybe even meet someone famous, marry someone rich and only come back home when I HAD to. It's like the song "Home Is Where The Heart Is" by Lady Antebellum where she says "I felt I was spinning my wheels Before too long the road was calling I packed everything I own So sure that I was leaving this small town life behind for good And not a single tear was falling"



Yes, this is exactly how I felt. No matter how much I got homesick, moving back was just not something I would ever do. Not that that is what I'm doing now, but I have officially come to the decision that I would LOVE to raise my family in Sanpete! Now I know some of you out there have your ideas about small towns and kids and how there is nothing better to do but drugs and drink and have sex... but that is SO not true! I believe it is all in how you raise your kids. Me and my best friends were all raised to be people our parents could trust and in return we had SO much fun together! We didn't go out and party and ok, maybe we didn't do the "cool thing" at the moment... half the time we probably looked like nerds and still do but whats wrong with that if we're having fun and staying out of trouble?



Sorry about getting on my soapbox for a minute there. Anyway, Sanpete... yeah. I miss it. I miss the Christmas lights this time of year and the Holiday spirit. I miss the wide open fields in between the cities, with a few animals roaming around. I miss the fresh country air and (even though I kind of also hate it) the way that everyone knows everyone else and makes you feel welcome. You just don't get that in the city.



Now, I love where I am at right now in life. There are a few changes I would make but for the most part it's great! The people at work are like a little family for me and I have become good friends with some really amazing people! Also, the fact that I get to go home on the weekends, keeps me going! It's a place of refuge from the busy every-day life.



So for those of you who think I'm dumb for coming home so much, or not getting a second job through the Holidays and things like that... Thank-you for caring. I really do appreciate it and I know that a lot of your advice is probably the choices that I should've made. However, driving into Fairview after a long week and seeing the small town life just makes me happy! Being able to be near my best friends, who are more like sisters (and brother!) is so important to me! Especially around the holidays when EVERYONE is home. There is really no where else in the world I would rather be!



Ok, now off my cheesiness... well I'm sure this next part is pretty cheesey too... But I heard this song the other day and it reminds me so much of our small county of Sanpete! So yes, I just had to post the lyrics! Enjoy!



We Rode In Trucks- Luke Bryan



Down where I born it was heaven on earth.

The Flint River washes that red Georgia dirt.

The sun sets slow and the stars shine bright.

We raised cotton, corn, a little cane, and kids.

You either lived on a farm or wish you did.

Jesus always walked close by our side.

Where I grew up, we rode in trucks.





There's a lot about life you can learn on a bus,

How to lie,

how to fight,

how to kiss,

how to cuss.

The closer we sat to the back, the smarter we got.

We were poor, we were ugly, we were all best friends.

White-eyed, baptized, and still wantin' to sin.

Thank God we get more than just one shot.

Where I grew up, we rode in trucks.





That's us, haulin' hay in the field with the radio on.

That's us, headin' straight into town when the work is done.

In my mind, I can still see us now, ridin' down Buck Island Road.

It wasn't that long ago.



We thought tobacco and beer in a can

Was all it would take to be like our old man.

But I saw how it made my momma cry.

It was huntin' and fishin' and football games.

Then it was girls, and everything changed,

our lives.

Fallin' in and out of love, we rode in trucks.



That's us with our tailgates down in the parking lot.

That's us with mud on our tires when it rained a lot.

In my mind, I can still see us now, ridin' down Buck Island Road.

It wasn't that long ago, it's apart of my soul.

Yeah, Down where I was born, it was heaven on earth.

The Flint River washes that red Georgia dirt.

The sun sets slow and the stars shine bright.

Where I grew up, we rode in trucks.





Ok so for the most part, don't you think of Sanpete when you read this? Or if you don't know what or where Sanpete is, don't ya think of a small town? Yeah, I thought so!

I'm With The Band...

What have I been doing this past week?

Watching them..... (Little Big Town)

Loving him.... (Jimi Westbrook of Little Big Town)

Counting down...

To her.... (Carrie Underwood)

And this song... (Last Name)

And this song... (Jesus Take The Wheel)

And all of her songs..... (Don't Forget To Remember Me)

With her.....

And buying these shirts.....

With their logo and a slogan from thier song..... (Little Big Town)

And this poster of her (Carrie Underwood)

Then.....

Hanging out with/ babysitting her..... (Watching High School Musical)

And them... (Playing with Thomas The Train)

Pretty much this was like... the greatest week! :)

Last night in Memphis

Tonight in New Orleans

Tomorrow I’ll be miles from here

Ain’t nothing to me, nothing me

Sweet gypsy highway

Won’t you let me chase my dream

Cause I got a song to take me there

And it’s something to see, something to see

Lord I was born with a suitcase in my hand

Living in a life that few could understand

Sometimes it gets so confusing that I don’t know where I am

But I always know who I’m with

I’m with the band

Cheap whiskey midnight

Another round with my friends

Watching the world through the windshield

And we’re rolling again, rolling again

Lord I was born with a suitcase in my hand

Living in a life that few could understand

Sometimes it gets so confusing that I don’t know where I am

But I always know who I’m with

I’m with the band

Oh Lord I was born with a suitcase in my hand

Living in a life that few could understand

Sometimes it gets so confusing that I don’t know where I am

But I always know who I’m with

I’m with the band

Last night in Memphis

Tonight in New Orleans

Tomorrow I’ll be miles from here

Ain’t nothing to me, nothing me

Oh yeah.... and loving this song!

Feeling A Moment....

And I've been tagged again!

1. Did you date someone from your school?
Yeah.... I dated a lot of people from my school!

2. What kind of car did you drive?
A White Grand Dam until I rolled it the summer before my senior year. After that a White Alero!3. Did you pass your drivers license test your first try?
YES!
4. Were you a party animal?
No... I was kind of the one that was friends with everyone but I didn't do the whole "drinking/ drugs/ stay out all night thing" I just hung out with my BEST friends!

5. Were you considered a flirt?
Um... I guess you could say that.

6. Were you in band, orchestra, or choir?
Concert Choir my Sophomore and part of my Junior year.
7. Were you a nerd?
I think I was, but I don't think other people saw me that way.

8. Were you on any varsity teams?
Tennis!

9. Did you ever get suspended/ expelled?
No... My Uncle was the Principal so it was kind of hard to do anything wrong! :)

10. Can you still sing the fight song?
We sing to dear North Sanpete High, our hearts we raise to thee....

11. Who were your favorite teachers?
Well of course my Brother and My cousin! But after that I LOVED Ellefsen, he was an amazing teacher!

12. Where did you sit for lunch?
I honestly don't think I was ever even at school for lunch and if I was, we usually went and got food and then ended up sitting in halls eating it or in Chelsea's mom's office at the ed-net building!

13. What is your school's full name?
North Sanpete High

14. What is your school's mascot and colors?

We are the Hawks and our colors are mainly Red and White and then they "brought black back" my freshman year.

15. Did you go to homecoming and with who?
Homecoming wasn't a date dance at our school and I think I only went my freshman year.

16. If you could go back and do it again would you?
I loved my Senior year but anything before that... NO!

17. What do you remember most about graduation?
Just being glad it was over...

18. Were did you go senior skip day?
I think some of my friends and I went shopping?
19. Were you in any clubs?
No
20. Have you gained some weight since then?
Yes and where some might not like that, for me it's a REALLY good thing!

21. Who was your prom date?
Junior year it was Spencer Poulson and Tyson Church, Senior year it was Mackenzie Brown and Kolton Jorgenson.

22. Are you Planning on going to your 10 year reunion?
Depends on where I'm at in the next 8 years.

23. Did you have a job in high school?
Well... you could call Miss Fairview a job I guess! Other than that I was kinda spoiled!

Now I tag Emilee, Aubrey, Lindsay, Whitnee, Dee... or whoever wants to do this tag!

Hope For The Hopeless...

Barack Hussein Obama II is now President Elect of the United States Of America.

Yes, I did just open with that statement to get the wheels turning in your mind about whats to come. Aren't I nice? Now for the real story....

About 2 and a half months ago, I made the hasty decision of moving to a place that I considered "Great, for a cheap price." Oh how wrong was I? I got a glimpse of what was to come the first day moving in when many tears were shed as I forced my stuff into the small storage spaces and forced myself to go into the disgusting bathroom to take a shower. Praying that it would get better, I did what I had to do. One of my roommates and I spent almost 2 hours deep cleaning the bathroom and removing the bundles of hair from one roommate who doesn't care to clean-up after herself. Our objective? Besides having a clean bathroom we thought the other two roommates would maybe get the incentive to clean the kitchen... maybe clean up after themselves in the bathroom..? Nope. Nothing. Our plan of action? Find alternative places to shower and eat or deal with it when we absolutely had to. (Thank you Aubrey, DeeAura, Shalie and Danni for letting me come over to shower multiple times and even stay when I was too sickened by the thought of going back to my place!)

Well... needing to take further action to get myself out of this mess, I decided to sell my contract. After numerous e-mails and my roommate also helping, we finally sold the two contracts for our bedroom! The result? Relief!

So as I begin looking for another place to live, my co-worker/ friend Aubrey says to me "Hey, the apartment in the basement of the place my brother is living has a spot and I might move there!" And I say "Sweet! Can I buy your contract?" Thinking this is the perfect idea because the girls who live there are great and I would love it... She agreed and we began our quest to get things finalized. Due to a nosey wife who reads her husbands e-mails and takes it upon herself to answer questions she doesn't know the answers to, we finally find out that it would be difficult to guarantee me her spot. My feelings... despair. But thank you again Aubrey for at least finding out now, rather than a month down the road when there are NO contracts available anywhere and I end up homeless!

She then assured me she would help me find a place to live and not to worry, it would all work out. I began my search on craigslist and she did the same. After e-mailing me some housing offers she saw that I might be interested in, I found a place that I remembered looking at before and kind of loving! So after I took down all sorts of phone numbers, calling and leaving messages, and sending multiple e-mails... I finally got a reply! We agreed upon a time to meet and she could show me around the apartment.

Upon arrival, I noticed the girl showing me around was cute and had good hygiene... the kind of girl I would be ok living with. She was very personable also. I also found out that two of the other girls are from California and totally my age! The apartment smelled really good and had a clean, homey feeling to it. I inspected what I needed to, got the answers I needed and finally decided to take a contract home with me. After not being able to sleep and praying with all my might, asking if this was the place I should live, I finally deicded I felt really good about it! So.... as of December 19 I will be living in Crestwood apartments! Yes, I am VERY excited about this! Now I will post pictures of what my apartment will look like! Yay!

Of course decor will be different but I'm going to love it just the same!

Well thats it.

Oh and on a side note... I LOVE One Tree Hill and this is a picture that just gets me excited for whats to come! :)

As for the question... why is Peyton in this weird stripper/ bikinni thing? I just don't know cuz thats not like her but hey, the show is my guilty pleasure! :)

Can't stop listening to: Fairytale

By: Sara Bareilles

Cinderella's on her bedroom floor

She's got aCrush on the guy at the liquor store

Cause Mr. Charming don't come home anymore

And she forgets why she came here

Sleeping Beauty's in a foul mood

For shame she says

None for you dear prince,

I'm tired today

I'd rather sleep my whole life away than have you keep me from dreaming

[Chorus:]

'cause I don't care for your fairytales

You're so worried about the maiden though you know

She's only waiting on the next best thing

Snow White is doing dishes again cause

What else can you do

With seven itty-bitty men?

Sends them to bed and calls up a friend

Says will you meet me at midnight?

The tall blonde lets out a cry of despair says

Would have cut it myself if I knew men could climb hair

I'll have to find another tower somewhere and keep away from the windows

[Chorus]

Once upon a time in a faraway kingdomMan made up a story said that I should believe him

Go and tell your white knight that he's handsome in hindsight

But I don't want the next best thing

So I sing and hold my head down and I break these walls round me

Can't take no more of your fairytale love

[Chorus]

I don't careI don't care

Worry bout the maiden though you know

She's only waiting spent the whole life being graded on the sanctity of patience and a dumb

Appreciation

But the story needs some mending and a better happy ending

Cause I don't want the next best thing

No no I don't want the next best thing

I want something, I want...

Now that it's officially November, (the month I dislike... mostly because I dislike Thanksgiving food), I will update you on things that wont involve emotional distraught-ness! 

Cant Stop:

Drinking Vanilla Coke Zero (But is that really new?)

Eating Orange Creme and Key Lime Pie yougart

Finding awesome new songs to add to my i pod touch

Facebook stalking cute boys :)

Going home on the weekends so I can shower in a clean shower and sleep in an actual bed!

Need to:

Deep clean my side of the room

Clean my car... DEEP clean my car

Start exercising

Stop drinking pop. Even if it's diet.

Fill my medication for my shoulder

Stop eating chocolate

Want to:

Sleep forever and ever

Get a new cell phone

Move

Play in the rain

Go to the Carrie Underwood concert (which I am with Aubrey in 19 days!)

Meet James Lafferty

Get a raise

Go to school

Cut and color my hair

Go shopping. Just one day, all day long. But I'm having a hard time getting into the shopping mood! 

I want something, I want- Grace Potter and Bethany Joy Galeottie

I'm the girl with the best intentions 
something I should probably mention 
I like to get just what I paid for 
So i pay and I get and I pay and want some more, more, more 

And I want something that I want 
Something I tell myself I need 
Something that I want 
I need everything I see 

I'm a girl who's got a notion 
I'm a gonna show you my magic potion 
I could shop till I drop right to the floor 
And I get right up and I want some more, more, more

And I want something that I want 
Something I tell myself I need 
Something that I want 
I need everything I see (everything I see) 

Mo-o-o-o-re 

And I want something that I want 
Something I tell myself I need 
Something that I want 
I need everything I see 

Something that I want 
something that I tell myself I need 
something that I want 
And I need everything I see 

Wreck Of The Day....

So... I must say today I am torn between the feelings of 2 emotions:

1. School-girl giddiness
2. Heartbreak that seeps into my very core

As much as I would love to take the first one and leave the rest of it behind, the raw emotion somehow ends up swallowing me, slowly. As you've probably noticed from the past couple posts, the hurt I've been feeling isn't new. It's been trailing me for a couple years now and every once in a while it shows it's ugly self. These are the times I take to reflect on the person I was in high school, the person I became after and who I am trying to be right now.

I was currently introduced to some new novels written by the author: Traci Hunter Abramson.
The first couple she wrote were made into a series about a girl who witness's the death of her boyfriend who is an undercover cop. She is put into the Witness Protection Program and has to assume a new identity and start a new life. She then encounters problems and experiences that force her to keep assuming new identities and she kind of... loses herself along the way. I feel like that is what I have been doing. I lost the person I was in high school. I liked her.
She was pretty cool. She had the strongest testimony, she was fiercely loyal to the people she loved and she knew that the whole world was at her reach.
I want to be that person again. I'm going to be that person again. I'm broken right now.... But I'll slowly put myself back together.

On top of feeling this emotion as I began the day, I made the drive from Fairview to work, only to find out that 2 of my co-workers have been laid off due to the sucky economy. One of them being a really good friend. She was going to quit at the end of December to do her student teaching anyway but we still thought we had a couple more months with her. She was one of coolest girls I have ever met and I will really miss her. Whit, I love you! So the emotion only grew stronger to which I didn't think it could.

There was then the school-girl giddiness emotion that would surprise me every once in a while. I have to say part of this was due to the fact that 2 of my really good friends and I went to High School Musical 3 Friday night! Yes, we did. And we paid full price! It was totally worth it! I'm going to admit that I loved it! Not only was Zac Effron the cutest high school senior I have ever seen in my life and I got to stare at him for an hour and a half, but it was topped off with laughter, love and brought back some really good memories of mine from my senior year! The night was only made better by going to Aubrey and Dee's to eat dinner followed by going to my place and downloading the soundtrack!

Another part of the school-girl giddiness was the time spent with my family. Even though I hear non-stop how I should stop coming home on the weekends and get a life.... I still love going home! I love spending time with my mom and dad! My dad and I grow closer each time I go down! Sunday night, he and I decided to take a trip down to the library and the bookmobile. While he did some stuff on the computer, I looked for good books to read!

That emotion was kept last night as I went to Aubrey and Dee's again and we spent the night making Chicken Fajita's for dinner and watching Gossip Girl and One Tree Hill! Doing these things are a nice distraction from the broken-ness that has become me!

guess as I look back at this kind of... introspective weekend, I realize that this is just the motions of life. It can take you by surprise. There are good things and bad things that happen to everyone, everyday and it's what you make of them and what you learn from them that will follow you for the rest of your life. As I take a look at myself, this broken record is being pieced back together and I'm slowly becoming the person I want to be! I've learned as I nurture my testimony with the simple little things we are asked to do in our every day lives, it truly gets you where you want to be. It doesn't happen over night and I realize this so for now, I'll keep trying to find that giddy school-girl feeling!

Standing Still....

Well I'm bored at work like always and Aubs tagged me so here goes....

The Rules: In Google Image type the answers to the questions below. Choose only one picture from the first page of results to represent your answer.

#1 Age- 20. So old, yet so young.

#2 Place I've been- DisneyLand!

#3 Place I want to visit- Australia

#4 Favorite place to visit- FishLake w/ the fam!

#5 Something you love to do- Listen to music! I love to listen to all kinds of music and interpret the heck out of lyrics!

#6 Favorite Food- Cereal! I LOVE cereal! This is my favorite isle at the store!

#7 Favorite color- PINK!

#8 Place I was born- Nephi, Ut....

#9 Current Obsession- Current? How about since I was a sophomore in high school... One Tree Hill!

#10 Something you collect- Seasons of One Tree Hill!!

#11 What are you doing right now- Wishing I was listening to this great new song I found yesterday by Buddahead called "Standing Still"! It's amazing!

I tag anyone who wants to be tagged! :)

Standing Still

You've got room to wear the clothes you want,

But there is no one there to show them off to,

This is how the past sticks to you.

There was a time you had inspiration,

A recipe for your life,

You were gliding over your youth.

All the ashes you spread,

All the love that you give,

That is who you are, how hard you break,

For the love you take.

All the fires you burn,

To dry oceans of hurt,

All the time you've wasted in vain,

And you're standing still.

You are tired and you're losing will,

You've got so much time to kill;

You've been running just to stand still.

Sometimes it hurts to scratch your skin,

But feeling pain takes your mind off it,

You wrap your arms and squeeze your bones.

You always thought if you loved enough,

Held it close for long enough,

You would never lose;

How wrong you were.

All the ashes you spread,

All the love that you give,

That is who you are, how hard you break,

For the love you take.

All the fires you burn,

To dry oceans of hurt,

All the time you've wasted in vain,

And you're standing still.

You are tired and you're losing will,

You've got so much time to kill;

You've been running just to stand still.

Oh, how life might take what dream may come,

How life might take what dream may come.

Ok, so I may seem like a broken record lately, But I'm just dealing with some stuff. Everyone goes through times like these so be patient because the light is beginning to break through the darkness!

xoxo Whitney