You call it madness, but I call it love...

So I am SUPER excited for.....

THIS!!!!!!! One Tree Hill season 7! I can't wait! AND my roommates will watch this season with me so it will be even better! Yay! I think I'm going to spend some time with Lucas and Nathan Scott this weekend... it's been a while! Thats all!

Holiday From Real

I FINALLY uploaded some pictures of my various adventures so far, over the summer!
4th of July!!! In a field across from the Stadium of Fire to watch fireworks!!

Clay, I heart this kid!

Roommies!!! We're missing the 4th :(

Turp, Brandt and Whit!!!

Brandon conquering the fountain at Crestwood <3>
Cambree tryin to be gansta on our way to FishLake!

The beautiful view at FishLake!

Mom and Aunt Sus at FishLake!

Me and pops, chillin on the porch at the cabins!

Gettin dinner ready!

Gettin ready to leave for home!

My girls surprising me!!!

Me and Teya at the Family reunion!

Me and Kierst at the fam reunion

Tiff, Mike, Allynne and Tracey at the fam reunion!

Me and Aubs at the Jacks Mannequin/ The Fray concert!!!


Andrew McMahon of Jack's Mannequin at the piano! They were AMAZING!

Me, Aubs and Dee in our Jacks Mannequin shirts!!! We're BIG fans now!!

The Fray!! My camera didn't take very good pics of the stage in the dark so here is one of the overhead screen. It was awesome!

Me and Cambree, waiting for the parade to start on the 24th!!!

Brothers, chillin at the parade... lookin just alike!

The derby!!! It's like Christmas in July for me us down home!!!

Cars crashing... looks like fun!

Me and Tab... takin pictures of ourselves inbetween heats!

So this summer has ROCKED so far! It's crazy to think that in just 2 weeks I'll be 21 already! We have lots more fun stuff planned and lots more pictures to come!!!

Always Find Your Way

Well seeing as how I'm at work right now and I don't have my pics with me, the NEXT post will be a catch up of the summer so far!

Right now I think we'll just start at last night. My roommate and I went the the Hannah Montana movie... yes, it's true... AGAIN! And I loved it... AGAIN! Whats not to love about a girl who can be BOTH a pop star AND a regular girl?! Isn't that every girls dream?!

Anyway, it took me back to my country roots and pushed my excitement to be spending the 24th weekend at home, to a level 10! Lets look at the fantastic-ness of FAIRVIEW on the 24th.....

Seeing OLD FRIENDS who you miss their guts like crazy!

Going to the PARADE, getting candy and seeing MORE old friends.. some good/ some not so good!



Getting the WHOLE fam-damly together to play, socialize and eat Sanpete's famous BBQ TURKEY! (My dad's is the BEST, just an fyi!) And other amazing fixings!

FOURWHEELING! That is if BEN will take me on an AWESOME ride!!

Fairviews famous DERBY!!!!!!!!!! The highlight of almost anyone's 24th of July! Sadly I don't have tickets this year, but thats ok!

And what EVERYONE waits for on holidays like these! FIREWORKS!!!!!

Yes, you should all be jealous if you are not going to be spending the 24th of July in Fairview!

But don't worry, I will take TONS of pics so you can enjoy it through my blog-ness!

"Always Find Your Way" Miley Cyrus (Yes, it's true!)

You wake up, it's raining and it's Monday

Looks like one of those rough days

Time's up, you're late again, so get out the door

Sometimes you feel like running

Find a whole new life and jump in

Let go, get up and hit the dance floor

But when the lights go down it's the ending of the show

And you're feeling like you got nowhere to go

Don't you know

You can change your hair and you can change your clothes

You can change your mind, that's just the way it goes

You can say goodbye and you can say hello

But you'll always find your way back home

You can change your style, yeah you can change your jeans

You can learn to fly and you can chase your dreams

You can laugh and cry but everybody knows

You'll always find your way back home

Your best friends, your little hometown

Are waiting up, wherever you go now

You know you can always turn around

Cause this world is big and it's crazy

And this girl is thinking that maybe

This likfe is what some people dream about

Cause when I'm feeling down and I'm all alone

I've always got a place where I can go

Cause I know

You can change your hair and you can change your clothes

You can change your mind, that's just the way it goes

You can say goodbye and you can say hello

But you'll always find your way back home

You can change your style, yeah you can change your jeans

You can learn to fly and you can chase your dreams

You can laugh and cry but everybody knows

You'll always find your way back home!

The Way You Make Me Feel

I'm in LOVE and I don't care who knows it!

It's true, I'm in love with... Michael Jackson!

Who knew? This whole time I've been led to believe he was "Wacko Jacko" as some media called him. However, this is NOT true.

It all started on June 25th, 2009. I too received various text messages throughout the day saying things like "Since Michael Jackson was made out of plastic, they're now going to melt him down into Lego's so kids can play with him for a change" and "Farrah Fawcett made on wish in Heaven. That all the children would be safe. So God took Michael Jackson" and other inappropriate things. Of course, with the state of mind I HAD, I chuckled just a little bit at these. My roommate Kourtney got really upset and appalled at this. She is a HUGE Michael Jackson fan. A couple days after, she convinced me to have a Michael Jackson dance party on our patio. As we danced to various songs of his and The Jackson 5, I felt something awaken in me! This music was amazing! I tried to play it off like I didn't really care for it but I was actually falling in love! Over this past week I have burned all of her Michael cd's onto my computer, read many stories about his life and watched his memorial service on t.v.

This man was amazing! Seriously! He is the only person to be inducted to the Rock'N'Roll Hall of Fame TWICE! He won 13 grammy's, had 13 number one hits AND sold over 750 MILLION records! Most people only DREAM of that kind of success! He broke down racial barriers, transformed the art of the music video and paved the way for modern pop music. He also inspired genre's such as R&B and Hip Hop.

Not only that, but he had amazing charity work. When he was 27, he co-wrote a song called "We Are the World" and brought celebrities together such as Billy Joel, Tina Turner and Willie Nelson, along with 36 others to help bring relief to a severe drought in Ethiopia at the time. The single sold over 7.5 million copies and won 4 grammy's. It raised over $63 Million in famine relief, saving many lives. He was a supporter of 39 charities and raised millions of dollars through his own charity, Heal The World.

Michael loved children. Not in the "I'm a psycho, sick, stalker, pedophile" way, but in a way where he just wanted children to be happy. Growing up he said many times how he didn't have a childhood, thanks to his father. He once said there was a park across from the recording studio and he would see kids playing and just start crying because he wanted to go play too but his father made him work. Of course it's this work ethic his father taught him that led to much of his success, but still. Michael just wanted to give kids the kind of childhood he never had which is why he built NeverLand. A place where kids could just go be themselves and not have to worry about the problems of the world like adults do. Yes, he was accused of doing wrong things with these children but the charges never matched up. The first boy was from this poor, no good family. Of course he just wanted money. How many people have claimed to have connections to celebrities, just to get money? Millions. And how sad is it, that the one thing Michael loved most in the world was tainted in that way? What if someone came to you and accused you of harming the love of your life? He must've been devastated. Which is why the excessive stress led to health problems.

Now, his image is a little questionable. Personally I thought he was good looking before all the surgery and stuff but lets clarify some things that most people don't know: The first surgery Michael had on his nose was because of an injury he got during a rehearsal. Personally I wish he hadn't have kept going and had it pinched so much but thats my own opinion. Also he did NOT color his skin white. He had a disease called Vitiligo. It's a chronic disorder that causes skin depigmentation. He wasn't trying to be weird or "different" by changing the color of his skin.

Now, I'm not saying everyone has to love him. But how can you not love someone who sang about healing the world, beating the violence and realizing that if we want to make a change, we have to start looking at the man or woman in the mirror. His moves and music changed the lives of millions. He influenced dance like no one else has. Say what you want about his character, secrecy, mystery and mischievousness, but in the world of entertainment... There will NEVER be another Michael Jackson!

Dreams Collide

Have you ever just felt CONTENT with the way things are in life? I mean, sure there are ups and downs... Everyone has though. But that feeling that you get when you finally learn that you are STRONG enough to deal with all the pain, heartache and trials that are sent your way; It's worth EVERYTHING that you have to go through!
These past 3 weeks have really been a learning experience for me. Let's start with losing my job... The despair I felt that day was something akin to the hardest thing I've ever gone through, two years ago. As I left the office, I didn't know where to go or who to turn to. I got home and walked into my empty apartment. I slowly picked up my phone, knowing EXACTLY who to call. My Dad. Now, for most of my life, I've been a mommy's girl but ever since leaving home, I've forged a strong enough BOND with my father to consider myself now a daddy's girl. My dad picked up on the second ring and as soon as I said the word "Dad..." he knew something was terribly wrong. After I explained what had happened, he knew just the RIGHT words to say. I couldn't believe how much he CALMED me down. I had been planning on going home the following day, after work but decided that I needed to be in a place of COMFORT at the time. On the drive home, through the rain, the WORDS of the song "Sweet Silver Lining" by Kate Voegele kept playing in my mind.
"I'm goin home, DOWNHEARTED and hopin I'm close, to some NEW beginning. But I know, there's a REASON for everything that comes and go's... But so many people are looking to me to be strong and to FIGHT, but I'm just SURVIVING. And I may be weak but I'm NEVER DEFEATED and I'll keep BELIEVING in clouds with that sweet silver lining..."
Throughout that weekend, I spent most of my time with my family. Over the next day, a second phrase in that song kept coming to mind "Most days, I TRY my best to put on a BRAVE FACE, but inside, my bones are COLD and my heart BREAKS. But all the while, something's keepin me SAFE and ALIVE...."
I cannot express the words to tell you how extremely THANKFUL I am for being sent to the family I was. They are my BEST friends. They HEAL me. Every single one of them. I don't think I could've gotten through that weekend without them SAVING me. Much like the way they saved me two years ago... NO QUESTIONS asked. They helped me see something that was CLOUDED in my mind; I'm NOT a FAILURE. It wasn't my fault and in this economy this is just something that happens. It does NOT reflect my CHARACTER or my work ETHIC in any way. I really needed to know this.
Monday morning, I picked myself UP and pressed forward. I spent the next couple of days searching, making phone calls and contacts. Monday night my DAD and my BROTHER Ben, gave me a BLESSING. Having the Priesthood held in our home has been such a GIFT I am thankful for. It gave me the strength to press on. Then, a miracle happened... Candice. My WONDERFUL, AMAZING, LOVING, GENEROUS friend Candice referred me to the office she works at. She is going to be having a baby any day now and she knew they were looking to find a replacement for her while she is gone over the summer. She set up an interview for me on Tuesday. FOUR days after everything went DOWN. So I went to the interview, IMPRESSED them with my skills and they said they would call me. That night, I made a very IMPORTANT decision, based on an estimated future schedule the interviewer gave me. Candice would come back, most likely in the fall and they would only need part time help after that. It was PERFECT. It was a SIGN from Heaven. I NEED to go back to school!
Well, I went in a couple days later for a second interview with the owner of the company and he offered me the job! Not even a WEEK after I left one job, I got another! One that has better pay, BETTER experience and that allows me to go to school!
Going through this experience has made me see just HOW MUCH my Father in Heaven loves me. I know WITHOUT a DOUBT that everything has happened for a reason and he is just OPENING widows so that I can reach the FULL POTENTIAL that he knows I'm capable of.
I started my new job on Tuesday and I ALREADY love it! I love the PEOPLE I work with, though I barely know them! I'm LEARNING new things EVERYDAY. I'm only part time until Candice has her baby and thats OK. I don't think I've gotten to bed before 2:00AM yet this week and I don't think I will over the next couple nights. I've grown CLOSER to friends here in my complex and to my ROOMMATE April. I am SO excited that she will be living with me in the fall too because I just love her to death! She is SUCH an EXAMPLE to me!

So in all these good things happening to me, something GREAT also happened but we'll save that for another post! As for now, here are some LYRICS that might give a little headway into how I'm feeling about next time.... :)

Dreams Collide

I am stuck here in a moment

And I'm trying to pretend

So I'll play this feeling over and over again.

I know all this memory

Maybe I should awake instead

But I'm on my way to go back inside my head.

I close my eyes

And try to hide

But I wake when these dreams collide.

So I'll put this all on repeat

And I'll make up what comes next.

Now I lay here, daydreaming on your chest.

Well I'm stalling to open my eyes

Cause I know it's time for me to leave this bed

But I've decided to fall back

Inside my head.

I close my eyes

And try to hide

But I wake when these dreams collide.

But it all breaks down if I

Keep on wasting all my time.

All alone, in my head

Wish I'd never thought about it in the end.

I close my eyes

And try to hide

But I wake when these dreams collide