Life Is Beautiful

Um... this is exciting....

In case you can't read it... it says 12:12 AM.

Thats right... my roommates and I (and Ben) are going to be partying with the screaming little girls until all hours of the night. While all the little ones will be screaming for Jacob... I will stay true to Edward!

Also, this is much excitement as well....

EP10 THE TURNING POINT

Production: 109

Airdate: 11/19/2009

Official synopsis: STEFAN AND DAMON HAVE SOME NEW COMPETITION. After reading the journal left by one of the Gilbert ancestors, Jeremy is inspired to return to his hobby of sketching fantasy creatures, a talent he had abandoned when his parents died. Much to the surprise of their friends, Matt and Caroline continue to hang out together. When Sheriff Forbes tells Damon there has been another attack, he offers to track down the killer and learns a startling piece of information about the town’s founding families. Alaric steps in to help during an awkward scene with Jeremy, Tyler and Mayor Lockwood. Stefan and Elena come to a new understanding, but everything changes when Elena accidentally makes a devastating discovery.

Looks like it is going to be a full night of Vampire-ness for me and I think I'm ok with that!

I wonder if it will top last night though... 1 Really cute boy + Me= Awesome date!

I guess it helps that he reminds me of Jim on "The Office" and says things like "This is the nector of the God's" (about every food and or drink in sight) and  "That's Jewish"...

Pretty sure that one is my favorite. So, good food, lots of laughs and really nice guy

all equal a great Wednesday night!

Life is beautiful- Vega 4

Life is beautiful,

We love until we die

When you run into my arms,

We steal a perfect moment.

Let the monsters see you smile,

Let them see you smiling.

Do I hold you too tightly?

When will the hurt kick in?

Life is beautiful, but it's complicated.

We barely make it.

We don't need to understand,

There are miracles, miracles.

Yeah, life is beautiful.

Our hearts, they beat and break.

When you run away from harm,

Will you run back into my arms,

Like you did when you were young?

Will you come back to me?

I will hold you tightly

When the hurting kicks in.

Life is beautiful, but it's complicated,

we barely make it.
We don't need to understand,

There are miracles, miracles.

Stand where you are.

We let all these moments pass us by.

It's amazing where I'm standing,

There's a lot that we can give.

This is ours just for a moment.

There's a lot that we can give.

Jesus, Take The Wheel

She was driving last Friday on her way to Cincinnati

On a snow white Christmas Eve

Going home to see her Mama and her Daddy with the baby in the backseat

Fifty miles to go and she was running low on faith and gasoline

It'd been a long hard year

She had a lot on her mind and she didn't pay attention

she was going way too fast

Before she knew it she was spinning on a thin black sheet of glass

She saw both their lives flash before her eyes

She didn't even have time to cry

She was so scared

She threw her hands up in the air

Jesus take the wheel

Take it from my hands

Cause I can't do this on my own

I'm letting go

So give me one more chance

To save me from this road I'm on

Jesus take the wheel

It was still getting colder when she made it to the shoulder

And the car came to a stop

She cried when she saw that baby in the backseat sleeping like a rock

And for the first time in a long time

She bowed her head to pray

She said I'm sorry for the way

I've been living my life

I know I've got to change

So from now on tonight

Jesus take the wheel

Take it from my hands

Cause I can't do this on my own

I'm letting go

So give me one more chance

To save me from this road I'm on

Jesus take the wheel

Oh I'm letting go

So give me one more chance

Save me from this road I'm on

From this road I'm on

Jesus take the wheel

Oh take it take it from me

Oh

Yes, this is how I feel today. Most days, I'm ok. But I'm struggling... I have been for some time. I try to hide it. I try to fix this on my own. But sometimes I feel like someone or something else just takes over me and I can't control it. It scares me. I realized last night I can't fix this on my own. I just need to put it in his hands because I can't do it by myself anymore.

On a much happier note, I got extensions! I LOVE them!

And I DO look a little high in the picture below because I am retarded and I can't keep my eyes open for the life of me when I take pictures... but we went to Applebee's karoke last night with a group of people and it was SO fun! So here's a picture of the girls! :)

Me, April, Meg and Kourtney

I LOVE these girls!

Love Song Requiem

Um... So this movie is UH-MAZ-ING!

Being a big fan of Michaels, I have been dying to see this movie! Kourtney and I FINALLY found a time that we could both go. I didn't know what to expect from this movie. I didn't want to look anything up about it, other than some reviews, for fear of ruining it for me. Well... as Josh says "Let me tell you how it ends... he dies". Thanks for your sensitivity to the subject, you buttface miscreant!

Well it turns out that this movie is all about the preparation, planning and rehersals for his upcoming concert tour! He was making a documentary for his own collection to be able to remember how awesome this experience was going to be. There are interviews with the dancers, the band, the tour director... everyone. It was so amazing to see how hard working Michael is and how insistant he is on working with his dancers to make sure they get all the help they need and how he wants to be involved in every aspect of the tour. It is especially apparent during certain parts of the movie, how much Michael cares about the enviorment and people of the world.... He truly was an amazing guy!

Some people are choosing to look at this with the glass half empty but I, I'm choosing to look at the glass half full. Despite maybe some wrongdoings, he really was an inspiring man and I for one, am extremely glad that he left us with this one last look into how much he truly loved music and dancing and the world. Oh and P.S... Kenny Ortega is a genius!

Now onto the recents in my extremely exciting life....

- 4 things that occur regularly, that I look forward to most during the week: One Tree Hill, Vampire Diaries, Community and White Collar! Yes, I am sad... Don't mock! Of course... it doesn't have anything at all to do with the hot guys cast in these shows... right? ;>

                                       

- Currently going through a "Blueberry Morning" phase. For some reason, I have aquired a taste for that cereal and actually wake up, craving it. Hmmm... weird.

- Excited about getting back into writing. I've been inspired lately and writing really helps me relax... hopefully it keeps up!

- Hoping to get into the Holiday spirit by starting Christmas Music early this year... I'm driving my co-workers nuts!

- Trying to get this "Budget" thing down. It sucks... but at least I have a new car! :)

- Get to see my Sky Sky tonight! It's been literally... like 4-ish months! I'm SUPER excited!

- Been cooking a lot lately! Used my George Foreman grill for the first time last night! I feel so domestic!

- Getting the windows in my Mazda 3 tinted next week! Wahoo!!!

- Really wanting to meet a tall, dark, mysterious/ brooding, beautiful boy SOON. We'll see how that works out....

Ok... Maybe something MORE exciting will happen soon. I'm actually kind of ok with life being on the down low right now. It means, no drama... no worries... time to do the things I love, with the people I love... time to myself to make sure I'm on the right track and doing the things I need to be doing...

You know what my favorite thing is? I LOVE getting off work as the sun is going down, going home to a clean room, lighting a candle I bought that reminds me of my parents home, turning some amazing music on and writing... or reading. Just for an hour or so. It draws me to a place of comfort. A safe haven that broadens my prespective and calms me. Who knew that something so simple could do that?! And thinking about it now... that was my safe haven in high school as well.

 Fancy that!

So the title of this post is an AMAZING song. "Love Song Requiem"- Trading Yesterday. It really speaks to me lately. The lyrics are just so tragic yet so romantic.

                                    

  Emily will find a better place to fall asleep

She belongs to fairy tales that I could never be

The future haunts with memories that I could never have

And hope is just a stranger wondering how it got so bad

I die each time you look away

My heart, my life will never be the same

This love will take my everything

One breath, one touch will be the end of me

You could be the final straw that brings me back to earth

Ever-waiting airports full of the love that you deserve

Wishing I could find a way to wash away the past

Knowing that my heart will break,

At least the pain will last

I die each time you look away

My heart, my life will never be the same

This love will take my everything

One breath, one touch will be the end of me

Emily will find a better place to fall asleep

Maybe she will save me in the oceans of her dream

And maybe someday love

Maybe someday love

Maybe someday love

What Can I Say

And the Winner is...........





A 2008 Jet Black, Mazda 3 i touring edition!
This car is amazing!











Kind of wish it had a fin but hey, I STILL love it SO much!


I love the look of the inside with the black/ tan interior. And it's features are loaded!


After a long day of waking up early and hitting many places looking for Honda Civics, I decided to expand my horizons and look at some cars that had almost as good of value as Hondas, but that were cheaper. My dad and I test drove a sliver 2007 Mazda 3 but I had never driven one before so we couldn't really decide if it was running good or not. I was really hesitant.


No body could figure out why I just wasn't excited about getting a new car. Even with the prospect of this silver Mazda looking at me... It just didn't feel right. Then.... a miracle happened!


My brother in law Ben called and he and Em had been looking online for some good deals and they found a dealership in Murray that had like 17 mazda 3's on their lot. Well something that really narrows down 17 Mazda 3's? Automatic. I COULD drive a stick but after some debating, we thought it would be safer in the winter for me to drive an automatic when I'm not practiced on a stick.


So I looked at and Ice Blue Mazda 3 that I fell in love with, but the price wasn't right for me. Instead of wasting my time, the dealer gave me the option of only one car on the lot that fit my budget. I fell in love with it the minute I drove it! It was SO much smoother than the silver one! Also, a year older, cheaper... it had a few more miles but WAY less problems!


So we sat down with the dealer to see what he could do for me. I highly suggest going on the last day of the month to buy a car because the sales are pushing. I also reccomend taking my papa with you because not only did he bond with the salesman (they're going golfing soon and they both played at Weber State so they know a lot of the same people) I'm sure which got us a better deal, but he got them to throw in free tinted windows! I don't know what I would do without my daddy!


So yes, it was a very successful trip Halloween! The night before, my family had a Halloween party that was LOADS of fun! We came dressed up, then took off our costumes to eat dinner and TONS of desserts! Then we filled the garage with pumpkin carving and chatting! After I got home from buying my car on Halloween night, I ended up going to Spencers with Em and Ben and we watched some of the Jazz game, had dinner and played some games! On Sunday, there was a special temple devotional at the Manti temple for my families stake so I got to baby sit kids! It was SO much fun! I love that I am getting to know some of my neices and nephews that I haven't been around very much in the past!


I'll post pictures soon and hopefully I'll be posting about some new neices and a nephew that are on their way any day now!

So tonight all the co-chairs in my ward have a meeting with the Stake Presidency, just to make sure we're all on top of what we need to be doing and things like that. Did I mention I got a calling? Yeah, I'm on the Prepardness and Welfare council... or something like that. Actually I'm a co-chair. I guess that if I forgot to mention I have a calling, I also forgot to mention that my co-chair and I... dated a little bit. A couple weeks ago. It was one of those things that you could sum up by saying "The candle that burns twice as bright, burns half as long"... It was really good for a while. I guess really good is a term I would use... but probably not anyone else if you asked them. Like, my roommates, or my boss.... they weren't too fond of the situation. And by situation, I mean the way he treated me. I don't know why I keep getting into these things where I give 110% and they give like... 30%. You would think I would learn! I mean, he didn't do anything... horrible. But if you're kissing someone.... I kind of think that it should mean more than casual dating. ANYWAY....

Now we're co-chairs. Yes, the Bishop did this on purpose... with things he would say, it was VERY obvious that he wanted us to hook up. It's hard, ya know? It's easy when I'm not with him to act like all my feelings for him are gone and that what happened meant just as little to me as it did to him... but in all reality whenever we talk, even just text a little bit... I find that I still have feelings for him. What I'm confused about is that I don't know if these are FEELINGS, feelings or if it's just "I want to go out with you one last time so I get closure" feelings...
I guess I should tell my Bishop so maybe he could stop trying to set up unsuspecting, nice girls (aka: me) with a lame and disrespectful jackass... (Thanks for the words of encouragement Aubs!)

I guess I only feel this way when I am deep in thought about all of it. I need to stay away from the "Deep thoughts"!

P.S This song is on Carrie's new album that came out yesterday and it is AMAZING as always! :)

What Can I Say- Carrie Underwood feat. Sons of Sylvia

(Carrie) Piercing words, eyes are red
Watched your taillights in the rain
Empty heart filled with regret
I know we were both to blame

And I'm not sorry that it's over

But for the way we let it end
So I said all I had to say
In letters that I threw away

And you should know, please believe me
I've picked up the phone a thousand times
And tried to dial your number, but it's been so long
It's never easy, it's like tryin' to spin the world the other way
What Can I Say?'

(S.O.S) How did it come to this'
I think about you all the time
It's no excuse, but I wish
That I never made you cry

I'm not sorry that it's over
But for the way we let it end
I couldn't find the words to say

(Both) And you should know, please believe me
I've picked up the phone a thousand times
And tried to dial your number, but it's been so long
It's never easy, it's like tryin' to spin the world the other way
So what can I say' What can I say'
What can I say' What can I say'

(S.O.S)I hate to think all you had of me
Carrie (I said all I had to say)
(S.O.S) Is a memory I left you, pace between what was meant to be
Carrie (In letters that I threw away)
(S.O.S) And the mess that it turned into

(Carrie) And you should know, please believe me
( Both) I've picked up the phone a thousand times
And tried to dial your number, but it's been so long
It's never easy, it's like tryin' to spin the world the other way
It's like tryin' to spin the world the other way

What can I say' What can I say'
What can I say'