What Can I Say

And the Winner is...........





A 2008 Jet Black, Mazda 3 i touring edition!
This car is amazing!











Kind of wish it had a fin but hey, I STILL love it SO much!


I love the look of the inside with the black/ tan interior. And it's features are loaded!


After a long day of waking up early and hitting many places looking for Honda Civics, I decided to expand my horizons and look at some cars that had almost as good of value as Hondas, but that were cheaper. My dad and I test drove a sliver 2007 Mazda 3 but I had never driven one before so we couldn't really decide if it was running good or not. I was really hesitant.


No body could figure out why I just wasn't excited about getting a new car. Even with the prospect of this silver Mazda looking at me... It just didn't feel right. Then.... a miracle happened!


My brother in law Ben called and he and Em had been looking online for some good deals and they found a dealership in Murray that had like 17 mazda 3's on their lot. Well something that really narrows down 17 Mazda 3's? Automatic. I COULD drive a stick but after some debating, we thought it would be safer in the winter for me to drive an automatic when I'm not practiced on a stick.


So I looked at and Ice Blue Mazda 3 that I fell in love with, but the price wasn't right for me. Instead of wasting my time, the dealer gave me the option of only one car on the lot that fit my budget. I fell in love with it the minute I drove it! It was SO much smoother than the silver one! Also, a year older, cheaper... it had a few more miles but WAY less problems!


So we sat down with the dealer to see what he could do for me. I highly suggest going on the last day of the month to buy a car because the sales are pushing. I also reccomend taking my papa with you because not only did he bond with the salesman (they're going golfing soon and they both played at Weber State so they know a lot of the same people) I'm sure which got us a better deal, but he got them to throw in free tinted windows! I don't know what I would do without my daddy!


So yes, it was a very successful trip Halloween! The night before, my family had a Halloween party that was LOADS of fun! We came dressed up, then took off our costumes to eat dinner and TONS of desserts! Then we filled the garage with pumpkin carving and chatting! After I got home from buying my car on Halloween night, I ended up going to Spencers with Em and Ben and we watched some of the Jazz game, had dinner and played some games! On Sunday, there was a special temple devotional at the Manti temple for my families stake so I got to baby sit kids! It was SO much fun! I love that I am getting to know some of my neices and nephews that I haven't been around very much in the past!


I'll post pictures soon and hopefully I'll be posting about some new neices and a nephew that are on their way any day now!

So tonight all the co-chairs in my ward have a meeting with the Stake Presidency, just to make sure we're all on top of what we need to be doing and things like that. Did I mention I got a calling? Yeah, I'm on the Prepardness and Welfare council... or something like that. Actually I'm a co-chair. I guess that if I forgot to mention I have a calling, I also forgot to mention that my co-chair and I... dated a little bit. A couple weeks ago. It was one of those things that you could sum up by saying "The candle that burns twice as bright, burns half as long"... It was really good for a while. I guess really good is a term I would use... but probably not anyone else if you asked them. Like, my roommates, or my boss.... they weren't too fond of the situation. And by situation, I mean the way he treated me. I don't know why I keep getting into these things where I give 110% and they give like... 30%. You would think I would learn! I mean, he didn't do anything... horrible. But if you're kissing someone.... I kind of think that it should mean more than casual dating. ANYWAY....

Now we're co-chairs. Yes, the Bishop did this on purpose... with things he would say, it was VERY obvious that he wanted us to hook up. It's hard, ya know? It's easy when I'm not with him to act like all my feelings for him are gone and that what happened meant just as little to me as it did to him... but in all reality whenever we talk, even just text a little bit... I find that I still have feelings for him. What I'm confused about is that I don't know if these are FEELINGS, feelings or if it's just "I want to go out with you one last time so I get closure" feelings...
I guess I should tell my Bishop so maybe he could stop trying to set up unsuspecting, nice girls (aka: me) with a lame and disrespectful jackass... (Thanks for the words of encouragement Aubs!)

I guess I only feel this way when I am deep in thought about all of it. I need to stay away from the "Deep thoughts"!

P.S This song is on Carrie's new album that came out yesterday and it is AMAZING as always! :)

What Can I Say- Carrie Underwood feat. Sons of Sylvia

(Carrie) Piercing words, eyes are red
Watched your taillights in the rain
Empty heart filled with regret
I know we were both to blame

And I'm not sorry that it's over

But for the way we let it end
So I said all I had to say
In letters that I threw away

And you should know, please believe me
I've picked up the phone a thousand times
And tried to dial your number, but it's been so long
It's never easy, it's like tryin' to spin the world the other way
What Can I Say?'

(S.O.S) How did it come to this'
I think about you all the time
It's no excuse, but I wish
That I never made you cry

I'm not sorry that it's over
But for the way we let it end
I couldn't find the words to say

(Both) And you should know, please believe me
I've picked up the phone a thousand times
And tried to dial your number, but it's been so long
It's never easy, it's like tryin' to spin the world the other way
So what can I say' What can I say'
What can I say' What can I say'

(S.O.S)I hate to think all you had of me
Carrie (I said all I had to say)
(S.O.S) Is a memory I left you, pace between what was meant to be
Carrie (In letters that I threw away)
(S.O.S) And the mess that it turned into

(Carrie) And you should know, please believe me
( Both) I've picked up the phone a thousand times
And tried to dial your number, but it's been so long
It's never easy, it's like tryin' to spin the world the other way
It's like tryin' to spin the world the other way

What can I say' What can I say'
What can I say'