*UgH*

UGH!

and yes, i use capital letters on that. 

thats how i feel that today will go. 

i've had a really emotional past couple of days.

it's been a roller coaster ride filled with ups, downs, and straightaways.

i finally got moved into my apartment, a great apartment at that, filled with great people 

and a great spirit. something i haven't had in an apartment for a while.

monday was hard. granted, i'm 22 and leaving home shouldn't 

have been as hard as it was.

but it was hard leaving the people who saved my life. literally.

the people who i have been around constantly for the last five months.

the people who are the only one's who will actually be there for me, no matter what.

for eternity.

so yes, tears pricked my eyes as i drove out of town. 

i didn't know where i was going or what to expect. 

it's a new beginning,

thats what i have to keep telling myself. 

this is an opportunity a lot of people would kill for.

but as i find myself on my own again, i find my thoughts to be.. 

different than what i would've expected.

the people i find myself wanting to find comfort in, as i am 

away from my comfort zone (home)..

are...

unable to reach right now.

so this is a time to learn how to be alone,

learn how to be ok alone and 

find comfort in myself and my Savior...

this is only a test though.. and i know that. 

whenever the time comes, i'm going to learn from this.

i'm going to make strides in becoming the best person i can be 

because the time is NOW for it to happen. 

sorry for the jumbled thoughts. 

i told ya it was going to be one of those days....